The girl that sings…

The girl that sings…

It’s funny… In every day life, I don’t fair well in big crowds. Hate it actually. But put me on a stage in front of a room full of people, and I feel at home. It’s like I’m the best version of myself. I’ve been playing in the cover scene for over 16 years now, for crowds big and small, in places all over Canada. I can’t explain how it makes me feel when someone is touched by a song I sing. Up until this point… it’s always been others peoples songs I’ve been singing. Now that I am about to release this EP and share it with the world…. I find myself worried. Worried that the stories and feelings I share won’t be enough. I’ve poured my heart and soul into these songs and feel that uncomfortable vulnerable feeling that no one likes to have each time I let someone listen to them. But like that wise man once said…. nothing good happens when you’re comfortable. That’s what he said right? That wise man?

You know when something bad happens to you? Something that you want to forget as quickly as possible? That awkward conversation or a breakup with a person you thought was “The One” over time, those feelings seem to fade as we push them deep down into the cellar of our mind. Well, I’m real good at pushing those feelings all the way down. WAY down! That is until I decided to co-write this EP with Rob Wells and Shobha. I think it’s safe to say I cried every day we spent writing. I found myself drumming up old feeling and war wounds that I thought I had already dealt with. One song in particular “Until You’re sorry” really broke me. The content of the song is brutally honest, and the notes are HIGH! I struggled recording this song. Between the tears and the frustration, I didn’t think it was going to happen. I really thought this song was going to break me…. but what happened you ask? It’s now my favorite track.

It was after recording this song that I realized something…. every time musicians sing our songs with you…. we drum up all those feelings that should be nestled away in the cellar…. my wish for everyone who listens to my songs is that you feel the way I felt at that moment. That you truly are in my tormented mind for a short stay.